Training Camp At Home

I have finished TOEIC Test on last Sunday. Next test is in the middle of Sep. So, I will take a brake for the time being.
To tell the truth, I was exgausted to study TOEIC. I have been making much of listhening test and I listened by ipod on the train. I get accustomed to the naitive speed to a certain extent.

To tell the truth, I splurged on travel expenses during my stay in States. I really regret to some my mistake . Then, I made up my mind to save money, that is, to stop taking a taxi.
My company is located in inconvenient place, being far from station. So, I have often taken taxis whenever I come close to being late.
It would be terrible to calculate the total sum of taxi fees. Therefore, I never calculate it.
I put it into practice as soon as I came back to Japan.
To my surprise, I have been keeping that so far! However, no one never praise me.(laugh).

My some trouble during the trip in LA was come close to missing the Lego land tour.
I waked up late at 9:00 am although the departure time is 9:15. As soon as I prepared quickly, I called to the tour agent and asked "Please wait a little bit. I will go to there soon by taxi." "NO! NO! Bus will leave 2 minutes." Oh my god! I was already charged with my credit card.
However, how lucky am I ! They could reschedule and I can participate in the tour next day at last although any refund should not be allowed as usual. I felt as if I was survived.

I can't go through travel without any trouble. Keep cool anytime.

Now I am in L.A. I left Narita on the last Saturday. I feel that people have not been mind about Swine flu in spite of media's storm.
As soon as I arrived at L.A., I took a mini bus bounding for Anaheim. In the bus, some tourists said about swine flu. " Media is overexagerated. Because it is good for business. Everything is money."
When he got off the bus, the driver asked to him, " By the way, where are you from?" " Mexico City" ....Oh my god! I was with him in narrow space for 40 minutes.
The driver said to me, " Don't put on musk. But wash your hand. Be careful, especially at Disney Land."
We, tourists weared on mask are seened to be ridiculs.

After all, there were lots of mexican in clouded Disney Resort. I found it too late to protect myself.

I have been really into "American Idol", the audition TV program in USA. The first time I watched it, I was very surprised at the excellent performance of cantidates and really severe comments by judgements. It is by far different from the Japanese audition program makeing much of pretty appearance the candidates. The real American Idol are expected their singing abilitis.
Thereofore, judgements are always honest with candidates. I feel sometimes that they are too severe to adivce but it is very to the points. Severe advice can get them to improve or make up mind to quit pursuing their dream.
It is fabulous beyond descrition and I can check the program on every Saturday and Suday without fail.

I asked to my English teacher about how many repeaters he has. To my surprise, the number of enthusiastic students is only 10. Why? His classes are fully booked every time and he is no doubt most popular teacher of our school. Oh my god!
In addition, I asked him very interesting question about what % of the students have extremely improved. He thought for a while and then said, "You can check on the our school community at mixi or ask to counselor". I did not want to know how other people judge his ability.
I said, "The important thing is what you think about by yourself".
Anyway, he did not answer clearly. Although I had expected all his repeaters could be diligent, he said that the most of them just enjoy lesson and might not study English out of the school.
At last, I could understand that there is no students have extremely improved at all( of course, including me), which means, in general, it is impossible to improve our conversation skill by studying at English school.
Apparently, he recommended me to talk much to foreign people in order to improve my skill. To my regret, how honest he is!.
However, that never defeated me. On the contrary, I can be proud of my hardwork compared with other students. I know very well that I am NOT smart. But I am not fool. If I continue my hard work, my effort would pay off.
Anyway, all I have to do is spend my free time OUTPUTTING as much as possible out of my school. It is , however, hard to put it into practice without my strong will because most teachers tend to make much of inputting at the lesson.
Anyway, I am not negative attitude any more from now....maybe(laugh).

I visited other branch of English sｃhool and was refreshed yesterday and today. It is well located because it takes 15 meniuts by bus and on foot from my company to the branch if the trafic is not heavy. What's more, there is s Starbacuks Cafe on the 1st foor of the building and the atmosphare is very calm and nice to study. I love it.
At any rate, I found it prominient to change the circumstance when I struggle with my slump.
The most pleasant thing was to meet the two of high skilled teachers.

Recently I have found it difficult to live in the unit of spouse.
Of course, I have been particular about my individual personalities at any time. That has made me comfortable when working, spending time with my friends and so on. However, in case of together with him, I found it uncomfortable recently.
I often tend to join several events with my husband and I thought it important to attend with him. However, to my regret, people regard me as just a wife of him. On the other hand, he is still regarded as his personality, not a husband of mine.

For instance, those who do not tend to call my name when I am together with my husband. It could be because I am a wife of him. They do not have to ask me if something happens. It is enough for them to ask him. I feel that I am lack of my personality in that case.

I like planning tour events for kindergarten related friends and my father and sister in-low. Whatever I made good arrangements, everyone gratituded to my husband. Maybe it seems that my husband behaved good leadership during the tour. (It might depend on my shortage of accountability…. ) But how much did I spend my time making the arrangement althouth I did NOT do in order to be gratituded?

The other day, I talked to my friends that my English teacher began going to a cooking school, because I talked him to my husband does lots of chores, especially cooking. To my surprise, they said ”How excellent your husband is!”. Oh my god!.He cooks everyday but me too. I take it for granted that he does lots of chores because we are working together. Fist of all, I insisted to my teacher that all husbands should cook more. That is why he began going to the cooking school, isn’t it? What's more, my teacher has never met my husband. Who can make a fundamental discussion with traditional men and educate a husband to do chores? Anyway, I am fed up with everyone’s praising my husband about his chores. Of course, my husband is excellent at any time.

Whatever I am about to live based on my radical thinking, I struggle with my gender. For example, in the morning, my husband prepares for my son’s cloth to bring to kindergarten. But he sometimes prepares too small or broken cloths even if I do NOT prepare such cloths in common sense. I feel ashamed that because the teacher should remind me of that mistake when I picked up my son in the evening. The most important thing is not minding it as I know. But I can not do away with the way of thinking about the gender.

Anyway, I should become to be independent more. I am looking for a fun without my husband such as volunteer work, hobbies, school etc. from now on. I am preparing for my old age living alone ( おひとりさまの老後).

I just talked to my husband that I made up my minds to enjoy my precious time without him. He agreed with me, saying "I understand well that you do not like to be a part of me". For better or worse, he can leave me alone.

Aboves might be small things and childish and negative thinkings. However, I strongly feel that marriage and feminism bring contradiction. I must keep fight with that for the time being.

Yuna Kim won the World Figure Skating Chanpionships 2009.


Needless to say, her performance was so excellent that she could brake 200 mark points on the score.
Her athletic and artistic performance was amazing beyond description. She can not only jump big triple-triple combination but also attract audience her beautiful expression on the ice. It seems like that Micheal Kuwan could also jump quite well. What is more, I am surprised at her strong mentality, defeating lots of pressure.

Miki Ando took bronz medal. Her performance was rich in great jumps and passion. She has improved her stability to achieve her play. She can control her mentality and has a confidnence. I expect her to make a very spectacular showing in the Olimpic games.

On the contrary, Mao Asada ranked 4th although she is expected to get gold at any time.
She has a difficult technique such as triple axell jump but she is seemed to be lack of concentration and strong mentality.
I think that she needs to spend more time doing another things except for skate. I want her to know that skate is not everything. I regret to say, her thinking is not deep. She should go to school and learn lots of things.
In addition, even if she is lack of her practice time, she should study how to manage her limited time. As a result of that, she might improve her ability of concentration within a limited amount of time.

ISU World Figure Skating Championships 2009 open in Los Angels,USA.

In this time, I regret to say that the performance by Stephane Lambiel （Switzerland) and Jeffery Battle (Canada) could not bee seen because they have already retired. In addition, my　favourite active skater,Alban Preaubert can not particepate in the competition.
Anyway, I expect Japanese skater.

I like Takahiko Kozuka very much. I like this type of skater having precious footwork. What's more, he seems like conscientious. His costume is simple and good.



Under recent tendancy of judgement, he should get points steadily, which means, he should never try quad jump. Especially in this season, the judement is strict to check underroatating. If he does not try quad, he would win the medal. However, the athlete no doubt try it.

Nobunari Oda is closed to the upper medal among Japanse if he can achieve his best perfomance.
Because his jump is steadily to rotate.I think he also does not need the quad, but it is higher possibility to fly his quad rather than other Japanese.
However, I do not like his costume because of its classic and traditional style with frill.

I also expect TakahikoMura. I like his dynamic jump (3 axcell).Nice guy! He is young, so I want him to challenge everything fearessly.

It is a little too late to write, however, today's topic is Ponnyo on the Cliff by the Sea (崖の上のポニョ）.
How much is the different impression between the adults and kids after they watched the movie? The answer is pretty big.Two diffrent type of targets applently exist on the movie. I was really moved "Miyazaki's World ".To tell the truth, I have known only "Totoro" with the fantastic feeling so far.

As for kids, it could be that Ponnyo is cute, lovely and finaly happy to become humanbeing from fish and live with Sosuke. The song sounds lots of fun.



On the other hand, the adults might be scared the story, which suggests "death" and "after death world".Especially, the scean that Ponnyo and Sosuke took the boat after the floods and met the couple of spouse in Taisho period is overwhleming.


Needless to say, the river which they boated on is obviously STIX. Therefore, they met past pepole of Taisho and Showa period. In addition, Sosuke also met his friends of the kindergarten. They were on the way to "Hotel on the Mountion", in short "Heaven", which means they were not alive. In spite of the invitaion, Ponnyo and Sosuke did not go to the hotel, because they were still looking for Risa, sousuke's mother.

After that, they passed tunnel and met Risa in the deep sea.
Sosuke said"I have been to here" in front of the tunnel. Ponnyo became to be back to fish while passing the tunnel.
The tunnel means the birth canal. The place where they met Risa is uterus.
Risa talked to Ponnyo's mother. Ponnyo's mother allowed ponnyo to be a humanbeing on condition that Sosuke looks after Ponnyo forever. Risa agreed with her.

Is that a really happy ending, isn't it? Is it an etarnal love? I do not think so. Sosuke at the age 6 should get engaged with Ponnyo. He can never leave from Ponyo.That is terrible. If he did not meet her, the floods would not be taken. Does it make sence?
However, the movie said that the spirit never die. So it gives us the spiritual messege from beginning to end.

There are lots of explication sites on the web. We could find the story so deep.

It is important to think in English.
I should need a following training.

When I want to say something in English ...
1. Firstly, imagine the things by kind of picture. (Be careful not to think in Japanese.)
2. Speak in English what I imagine

Most Japanese have studied English in the way of speaking English after he/she thought Japanese.
As for above example,
1. Imagine 2. Translate image into Japanese 3. Speak in English
In short, it is no use thinking in Japanese.
What's more, during 2, They tend to check their grammatical error.
It takes much time to translate. How serious!.

Anyway, I have written this essay getting rid of Japanese in my brain as much as possible. Which means, thinking in right brain.